It's a New Year.
"New Year. New Me." Pretty sure that is the saying.
Well, I don't want a new me. What I want is an honest me..
I want to be more open, honest, and real about what I do, who I am, and what I believe in. And about where I am at with my own desires too (more on that in a later post).
I've been holding back with friends, family, and even on Facebook, because I don't know how people will react or what they will say. A big fear of mine is disappointing others..
But it's time. It's time for me to share boldly what I do. Not only because I have seen the beauty of what I do, but also because it's reality. And it's not my place to shield you, even if I love you, from the reality of who I am. It doesn't give you choice in where/how you interact with me, space to keep being me, or us a place of realness to connect..
So, here it is.
I have been working as a conscious se*uality practitioner. If you don't know what that is, you are not alone. Essentially, I help people love and harness their desires and se*ual power so they can have more of what they want in the world.. which usually includes a lot of joy!
That seems broad, because it is. I never quite know what the sessions will turn into. But I do know.. that it is impactful.
In the past month I have supported clients with:
Tuning into and supporting the feminine flow
Using their se"ual energy to open up their capacity to love themselves and serve the world
Utilizing breath, sound, and movement to encourage longer-lasting pleasure and performance
Having their first full-body energetic orgasm
Finding safe avenues for expressing "destructive" energies/desires in the real world
Viewing partnership from anothers' perspective
And so much more..
In the end, my clients become better lovers, to themselves and their partners. And through this, continually find space to be more themselves in the greater world too (highlight on more space to be themselves in the greater world...)
Oh.. and I hosted a sensual play party also.. to help people recognize that their personal sensual expression is beautiful.. and enough..
I'm proud of who I am. I am proud of what I do for people. And I am going to continue to share.. in honestly and authenticity of myself, and in support of the magic that can be found in our se*ual, sensual bodies.
Thank you for listening. Thank you for your support. And thank you for journeying with me.
To another magical year...
May it be full of se*y and inspiring men.. and women
So proud of us. 9 of us, choosing to spend New Years exploring what it means to show up and navigate as our sensual selves in this world. Ringing in the New Year with tag, throwing popcorn at each other, exploration, tears, food smooches, and the most intense laughter in one room than I've experienced in a while.
For many of the participants, this was a first in experience anything like this. And they did SO WELL. From yoga and running across the room like cats, to opening circle, reading of the rules, sharing our experience as female and male-bodied humans in this world, to exploring authentic desires boldly, we did it together.
Throughout the night, I saw participants re-claim and voice their selves in the world- parts of themselves they never had a chance to express or explore due to family systems, cultural norms, or self-shame; A participant skipping the very first activity to honor their "no," sharing vulnerably that they cry a lot and it didn't mean they were sad- just present, another allowing her fear at using her voice, a sensual kiss amongst two same-sex heterosexual individuals, and another boldly expressing that their way of navigating needed to be allowed in the space..
All this, amongst a backdrop of hilarity- eating food off of someones neck and acting as "vampires," tag that ended up looking like parkour, flirting and then bursting into laughter, tiger and lion onesies, and so much more.
I guess I had some crazy idea that being a facilitator, all of this stuff would come naturally to me, but I found edges too: I noticed my tendency to shy away from the 2 desires I most wanted for the night, now hidden behind the "Should" of watching the room and making sure everyone was okay. I cried the next day in Reflection Circle, I let my "little" girl be seen- the one who didn't want to hear any negative feedback and told she was "bad," the one who wanted everyone to leave happy and have the best experience ever, the one who wanted everyone else to wish they were here too... because under all that she just wanted everyone to love her and this space as much as she did..
I am so thankful to my co-facilitator, my charming assistant, and every single human who showed up. I love you all deeper now and can't wait to see how this changes us, our relationships to each other (talk about people who "start the party"!) and ourselves in the world at large. Thankful to the ripples that have begun and to the undercurrent of "more" that wants to emerge.
Love you all so...