Yes, this jacket was a child's jacket based on the Frozen movies... repurposed to add to the sparkle collection.. hehe ;)
And for more cool things. A poem gifted to me for my birthday from a client:
Remover of obstacles
Untie-er of knots
-- Photo by the talented George Winchell
Taking care of my body, no phone, wearing sparkly shoes, dressing up every day, Silent Disco, Dancing, Getting adopted on the shore excursions
My fave: at dinner:
Waiter: Come back! But don't be married next time either!
Other Waiter: Wait.. but I saw her husband at the casino...
Other Waiter: Umm.. I thought she was dating a performer...
Other Waiter: I thought she WAS a performer!
Special shout-out to my new friends: Kees Crayé, Edz Camp, Ross Leadbeater, Armando Fonseca
The Fears and Triumphs of being Loud and Proud in one's business...
It is so crazy to look back in time and see how far I have come..
2.5 Years Ago: My first official Tantra Retreat with Monique Darling and Peter Petersen.
2 Years spent traveling/assisting with the above at 10+ retreats- also with facilitators Lawrence Lanoff, Cathleene Cienfuegos, Eugene Hedlund, Lawrence Lanoff
6 months Ago- Started my Conscious Se*uality Business as a way to continue my practice and make a side-hustle- Thank you to my coach Cathleene Cienfuegos!!
Now- Have celebrated my first 1K Day and 5K month!!!
Working on Iteration Two.. becoming a professional intimacy presenter on Cruise Ships (fingers crossed).. OH YEAH!!!
Life has a funny way of bringing your dreams full circle in weird ways.. I had went to school for Psychology and Business, wanting to have my own practice. I couldn't handle the stress of dealing with trauma and feeling helpless to do anything about it. Now, years later, I talk to people about their relationships and se* lives and don't have to deal with all the red tape. AND I get to touch people while I talk to them. AND do my business how I want to. Huge win.
Mentorship, Friendship, and having people in your camp are important. My biggest friends love me for me.. and couldn't care less about the non-traditional business I have. In fact, they cheerlead me for it!
Building a business, and being open about it, is VULNERABLE. It's truly putting your heart and soul out there for all to see- the wins, the mistakes, the heart-aches, and the celebrations- and never knowing how people will take it..
Building a business has pushed me more than ANY OTHER endeavor. I am constantly reaching my edge and thinking "I really have no idea if this is possible and nowhere to look for the answer.." Sometimes I panic with the not knowing, the lack of answers or models, and that when it boils down to it.. I am creating my life. ME. And that is the scariest reality of them all.
And also the most exciting..
---- Photo by an amazing Friend and Creative Muse George Winchell
Another kind of magic..
There is another kind of magic. Found in the humdrum of everyday life shared with someone you love..
Imagining what "might have been," in our fantasies,
You only see a few highlights.
Just out of frame...
Are a million ordinary
and sometimes awful
moments that also
would have been.
Moments less dazzling
but no less essential.
In our daydreams, No one breaks our hearts
or farts under the covers,
but those (among many other things)
are essential parts of sharing your life
with a whole person,
not just an idea.
all those might-have-beens aren't
as effortless as they appear.
And there's just as much magic here,..
It might just be harder to see.
-- A reflection (and card) from an amazing client of mine that takes me back to moments in partnered life...
of walking along the streets in winter, talking about yard decorations, and being as insanely happy as some of my most crazy adventures...
"I am simultaneously, the woman in bed wanting more, and the woman on the road, wanting to return home."
A parable in play...
In the play, there is a parable of a woman who is unhappy with her home life. She feels constricted and wants to adventure, but her family is not supportive. She leaves them to follow her dreams. She lives a happy life, has 3 children, and as she is aging, she feels an urge to return home and see her family. Upon returning home, she tells her family she is sorry for being away so long. Their response is that she has been there the whole time, in her bed sick upstairs. The woman walks up the stairs to see herself in bed. They embrace and she realizes they are one and the same person...
This felt so.. real to me. To me, it spoke of how we live our lives. If we never go for our dreams, our biggest desires, then we stay sick in bed our entire lives, wishing to be elsewhere.
But if we go for our dreams, we also realize the importance of home, consistency, family, boring day-to-day reality, and want to return.
And I felt it.
How many times have I felt the calling for something more that the humdrum? And followed it..
How many times have I gotten my biggest dreams, to feel that there was still something missing?
For me, that speaks to the human condition. The human that wants adventure, spontaneity, love, passion, and also wants consistency, loyalty, peace, and slowness. And realizing that we hold both, those parts of us are one and the same.
I am simultaneously, the woman in bed wanting more, and the woman on the road, wanting to return home.
It is when I merge both worlds and see them for what they are- both me- that I can truly "be" with myself and "be" with the world..
Pic at "StageKiss" with Melissa Williams