Exploring Energy

Years ago (or even months ago), when someone asked me what I was desiring out if connection with other humans, I might have said long-term relationship, deep intimacy and knowing of one another, sexuality, or building a life together.

Now, I say this. I'm looking to explore energy. And the edges of those energies within and around me as I explore the world and the humans in it.

And while some may look at my actions and read that I am looking for sexuality or relationship or even friendship, that is not actually the case. I already have a core group of humans that fill me up with basic human needs for love, connection, sexuality, and support. I also am getting pretty bad-ass at providing my core needs for myself.

So what I am desiring now, is to build on top of that and to go deeper. To explore energy and it's expansion opportunities inside me. To explore some deep stuff around desire and even selfishness.

So I say this to assert a disclaimer for those wanting to connect. If you are looking for long term commitment or a particular idea/form of connection as an intention, I am not available for that. What I AM available for is to explore the edges of energy, emotion, desire, fears, and boundaries and I can't even begin to tell you what might come of that, where it might go, or where it might start.

That could mean a few moments of deep energetic loving connection that lasts for a moment or long-term, or a hell no, or a crazy exploration into some fun "dark" interesting places like shame, jealousy, hatred, disgust, sexual fire, selfishness, and more. I don't know. That it what is fun with energy.

I'll tell you this though, my base intention for myself is to explore these things and to intend on giving presence, love, and net positive to you in that exploration.
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It will be wild, it will be fun, it will be interesting, and confusing, and raw, and expansive. And I'm ready for it.