"I am simultaneously, the woman in bed wanting more, and the woman on the road, wanting to return home."
A parable in play...
In the play, there is a parable of a woman who is unhappy with her home life. She feels constricted and wants to adventure, but her family is not supportive. She leaves them to follow her dreams. She lives a happy life, has 3 children, and as she is aging, she feels an urge to return home and see her family. Upon returning home, she tells her family she is sorry for being away so long. Their response is that she has been there the whole time, in her bed sick upstairs. The woman walks up the stairs to see herself in bed. They embrace and she realizes they are one and the same person...
This felt so.. real to me. To me, it spoke of how we live our lives. If we never go for our dreams, our biggest desires, then we stay sick in bed our entire lives, wishing to be elsewhere.
But if we go for our dreams, we also realize the importance of home, consistency, family, boring day-to-day reality, and want to return.
And I felt it.
How many times have I felt the calling for something more that the humdrum? And followed it..
How many times have I gotten my biggest dreams, to feel that there was still something missing?
For me, that speaks to the human condition. The human that wants adventure, spontaneity, love, passion, and also wants consistency, loyalty, peace, and slowness. And realizing that we hold both, those parts of us are one and the same.
I am simultaneously, the woman in bed wanting more, and the woman on the road, wanting to return home.
It is when I merge both worlds and see them for what they are- both me- that I can truly "be" with myself and "be" with the world..
Pic at "StageKiss" with Melissa Williams